"You"

You're warping your way,

To a depiction of innocence,

And pretending that you're not to blame,

You say that you've changed,

Everythings been arranged,

But all I see is that you've stayed the same,

You've messaged me recently,

Made it easy to ignore,

But I replied to your message,

I think we've done this before,

We've danced to this music,

We've played to this beat,

We've been to the cinemas,

And Walked around on the street,

Let's please not pretend,

You definitely did things wrong,

But so did I and you won't forget that one,

I caused arguments,

Of course I did,

But that's the nature of relationships,

But what isn't clear,

Is how you treated me,

Are you that delusional and too blind to see,

If you are,

Well let me explain,

I've got nothing to lose nor nothing to gain,

You abandoned me without warning,

It was you who broke it off,

So let's not forget that fact,

I started arguments yes,

But you refused to be reasonable,

And that's why I left you depressed,

Refusing to take accountability isn't cute,

From blowing things up bigger than they could've been,

To literally hurling abuse at me for nothing,

Are you really gonna say I have a victim complex,

When you've done nothing but deflect,

When you've shown me nothing but disrespect,

And I get it to a point,

Cos I let you down,

More than once and I didn't intend to,

But I ain't no handyman,

I can't try and repair you,

When you never open up,

When you did once I remembered,

I remember all our dates,

But there's just two to remember,

One was the cinema,

Seeing antman and wasp,

The other was on the river wear,

At our little Durham spot,

I still find peace there sometimes,

But that's always been me with nature,

It calms me down before I lose my temper,

And I'm sorry for all I did,

Loading you with my fetishes,

Being needy and obnoxious,

Sending you thousand of messages,

But I truly did love you before you gave me a reason not to,

And that reason was because you changed the you that I knew,

You became combative,

And short over text,

You refused to meet,

Or show me the slightest respect,

Look I'm sorry you ended things because you were stressed,

Or for whatever other reason I digress,

I was never told and never expected,

For you to leave me that night,

I get your pissed off at the poems I wrote,

But it was my truth not what you like.